Women

I have been thinking women are the most stupid creatures God put on this earth.  I think it is because we love too much.  Our kids are disrespectful, we let it go because we love them.  our husbands or boyfriends are assholes and we let it go because we love them. The dog pees in the floor, and we let it go..........   Maybe this is a good thing. We women are the glue that holds everything together.  I can't imagine a world without moms, grandmas, and wives and sisters.  Unfourtunatly  love and hurt go hand in hand and the trick is to be able to make a change when the hurt gets bigger than the love.  I have never learned how to do that.  But I am working on it. Men are experts at keeping that little bit of distance. Just enough to save their ass if things don't go well.

My goal for the next 10 days is to learn how to be comfortably numb without Patron or beer.  I am not saying I am not going to have a beer or a shot, I just want to be able to turn off the feelings without it.  I am going to start with a two day trip to Midland with my best friend Patti.   I can't think of anything I enjoy more these days than a road trip with Patti.  We have more fun doing nothing than anybody should have.  Then I am going to the mountains with Sam for a week.  No TV for him, no Internet for me, just together time.  See what I mean about women being stupid?  A week of Sam with no distractions?  Was this my ideal?

Well I just looked at the time and I have an appointment in 30 min and I am still in my jammies.  So i better run.

Kisses

Forever Young

My favorite song is Forever Young, sung by Audra Mae and the Forest Rangers. I listen to it everyday. It sets a nice tone for the day and expresses what I wish for everyone.

May God bless and keep you always
May your wishes all come true
May you always do for others and let others do for you
May you build a ladder to the stars and climb on every rung
And may you stay forever young

May you grow up to be righteous
May you grow up to be true
May you always know the truth and see the light surrounding you
May you always be courageous stand upright and be strong
And may you stay forever young

May your hands always be busy
May your feet always be swift
May you have a strong foundation when the winds of changes shift
May your heart always be joyful
May your song always be sung
And may you stay forever young

Enough said
Kisses

grammer

There, Their.............. there was taken, think outside the box. Who the fuck thinks up these catch phrases? And even worse, who the hell really says them? Given a little apprehension and a little tequila is there (their) really a difference? Say it out loud. Can you hear (here) the difference? I can't. Not like the way you hear oil. Ask someone from up north to say oil, it has 2 syliables now ask a Texas gurl (and yes i meant gUrl) it onl has one sylable. Now there is difference.

Age 49. Scarriest time of my life. Who the hell wants to be 50?  I know, beats the alternative right?  I was fat and old and scared.  Is this it?  Is this all there is and all there is going to be?   Can't do it.  I want MORE!  A lot more.  I want passion, I want excitement, I want up against the wall, can't get enough of you, rip my clothes off, down and dirty PASSION!!  I want to watch the sun come up an the east coast and I want to watch the sun go down on the west coast.  I want to forget what TV is and remember the thrill and fear I felt the firsts time I READ  Steven's Kings The Shining.  I want to sing Forever Young at the top of my lungs without worrying if I am off key or flat, and most of all I want someone to sing with me, and not care how we sound but care how we feel. I want to do the Hokey Pokey naked on Main Street.  I want.  I WANT MORE. And I want to know why spell check isn't working because I know I suck at spelling and typeing. But ya know, of all my many flaws  I am ok with those.  I do know how to spell all the dirty words, LOL.

It is almost 1am. It is rare that I am up this late. Wide awake tonight. I had the best evening with Ivy.  She is a good girl, a great mom, and I am guessing a pretty good wife. Ivy has a lot of qualities I wish I had. I am a lucky woman I have 3 beautiful girls and they each offer the world a gift that makes me so proud to say I am their mother. 

Goodnight everyone. 
Kisses

Thanks Lana

No one has ever encouraged me like my daughter Lana.  From the time she was 5 years old she has been cheering me on. "Go for it Mom"  "You can do it Mom" "I think you should do what makes you happy Mom", she would say.  Everybody needs a Lana, someone who believes in you no mater what, and trusts that every thing you do will come out well.   So thank you Lana. Hears to you!